Think Knits

Life has a sense of humor and it made me smile… 

I have applied for a visum for The Netherlands last July 2006 and I failed the interview (the interviewer is a Filipina.. shame, shame, shame).  My reason for applying for the visum is to be with my boyfriend at that time (yes, now an ex).  So, thinking that it was an unfair decision, we sent an appeal to the Immigration Department in The Netherlands.  It is now June 2007 and it has been ages since the appeal, so it is just natural not to expect any positive response from them, besides.. the reason for the application is not there anymore since we already broke up in February (or March?), and I have a lot of expenses ahead for this year.. goolay!!  I received 4 missed calls from the embassy last May while I was at the gym and decided not to return the call since it must be bad news anyway.  So, when my ex called me 2 weeks ago and asked me what my plans are for the visa.. I was kinda shocked.. and laughed.  Life indeed has a way of making a joke on me…  Now, I have a visum to go to the Schengen countries.. and I have no one to come with me.  Well, who needs a boyfriend to be able to travel, right?  Who says single Filipinas can’t make it.. well, I will try.   Pretty exciting and scary when I contemplate about the trip… but it would surely be one heck of an adventure.  That’s why I am blogging about it now.. because there will be more blogs in the future about my trip as I want to share this adventure to all my friends and also to see if I could also get some help from some of those who have done some travelling to Europe before..

To answer the un-asked question, yes.. as boring as it may sound.. I would still work while on the trip.  I will be taking my laptop with me.. hehehe.. Mahal ang ticket noh!

I have often regard myself as a hopeless romantic.. an avid reader of romantic novels, watching romantic movies (to the point of crying.. hehehe).. anything romantic.. name it!  This led me to yearn that kind of love on my life, to feel what has been described on those books.  Daydreamer.. that’s what i had become (oh well, even the nights too!).  Especially after watching or reading a very romantic novel.. I would often sigh.. and say to myself.. "awww…. they are so sweet.."  I have made a picture of the perfect man in my mind.. which i really looked for on those men I had relationship with.  All of them failed.  All the qualities that i have enlisted in my mind, I have found most on my ex-bfs but the relationship never really worked (that’s why I call them exes now), which led me to believe that i never really found love on those relationship or there was just really not enough love to make the relationship work.  I just found the qualities i have listed on my mind and let my brain dominate.  Unfortunately, too many failed relationships just made me stopped dating.  I regarded relationships as a short-period ego boosters that would only end up as "big" disappointments in the end.  So, what if I ended up as a soltera?  Being alone doesn’t mean you are lonely.  Mind you, i have discovered the joys of being single.  That one doesn’t really need a man in her life to be happy.  That fulfillment is sweet when you achieved it for yourself and not for anyone else.  Wanting someone in your life to complete yourself is not enough reason to want to be in a relationship, but one has to feel complete by himself/herself to be able to make a lasting relationship.  I am still not an expert on the topic as I have just came from a recent failure.  I was shattered for a while but I can say now that I have learned my lessons well and love myself better now.  As I often say, there are really no failures in life, just lessons learned…  But still, I love watching those movies and still smile on the sweet parts.. and yes, I still wish I am the girl in the movie…. 

As one movie says, "in the movies, we have leading ladies and we have the bestfriend," right now, I am the bestfriend, and I do not know if I will be a leading lady.  Well, being a soltera isn’t that bad.. there are lots of solteras everywhere and in my opinion… I’m an exceptional one.  Hehehe…

I was reading a mag (instead of working.. kakatamad kasi) when I came across an article wherein a celebrity was asked this question:  "What job would u be doing if you we’rent doing this?"  That is definitely a good question.  What else would I want to do?  Well…   I cant think of anything as of now.  I love what has happened to my life for the past 5 months.  It’s definitely the best (that is for now, who knows what’s in store for us in the future).  To say my thanks, I IM’d my dear Nana and told her this.  She was the one who encouraged me all throughout my confusion.  That was when I was about to settle myself as the new manager for an MT company,  she told me to go through with my plans of setting up.. do it or grow old and keep on asking yourself "what if?"  Simple 2 words but it hit me right there and then.

As I often told my friends and also myself,  problems will come our way and it is up to us to take it as a challenge.. take it as an opportunity to prove that you are stronger and wiser.  There are no failures in life, only lessons learned.

I took up the challenge.. and I never regreted a thing.